Circle Of Life

For once after this whole week here, it feels like the good old days again. It felt complete.

We have all evolved over time. After all these years, we've learned, we've experienced, we've fell and we've picked ourselves up again. We all made different decisions in Life and we all went away and did our thing. Regardless of our individual self, our thoughts and beliefs, when we are together... nothing changes and nothing will bring us apart.

We may bicker, we may say things that one may not like to hear, we may not see eye to eye to a few things but it's all out of concern and love for each other. For me at least, I will not tolerate anybody who comes into any of our lives and not provide happiness for you all. I will only wish the best and want the best for my gals.

No matter what you do and what your choice may be... our love for each other will always be there. Nothing changes and nothing will bring us apart.

It was through actions of love, words and laughter that brought us all together. Do not ever forget that and never underestimate the power of friendship. Do not ever take that for granted.

Saying goodbye tonight wasn't easy. It's not the first time we bid goodbyes but it also marks another long period of time before we can all get together again. One can only cherish and remember every single moment of this week... and till the next time... be the best you can be... be happy and take good care of yourself.

With Lots of Love xx

Home Sick

I'm finally home! It's always good to see the family and friends, except the horrible hot and humid weather. Everyone still seem the same except Mum has grown older each time when I'm back. From the moment I landed it was just a whirlwind of family and friends get-together with food, and more food! We ate and we drank. We laughed and we walked down the good old memory lane. It feels like I've been brought into a time capsule. All the stories in the past and all the people in the past... looking at us now... It feels like we've managed to freeze time and we are back in the early beginning. Freekish but it's always nice to be back.

Come tonight, the adrenalin is definitely calming down and the tiredness is kicking in. Finally have decided to call for a quiet night. Had a really nice family dinner and just wasn't up for another big boozy night with the boys. Time for rest.

It's almost 3am now and I'm wide awake! What's everyone doing back home? My home.

Another week here.

It's Time

Did loads of travel this year... some because of work and some short holidays. Been to Dublin, Edinburgh, Lisbon, Barcelona, Paris, Hamburg, Washington, Channel Islands, Amsterdam, but have never been back home, Singapore.

It's time. It's been too long.

To spend some time with my family, see my nan, catch up with all my friends... friends coming back from afar... family and friends that I've not seen for almost two years.

It's time. Its been too long.

Really worked hard this year. New role. More responsibilities. Still have tons to do tomorrow. Have not had a proper break at all. Need some time off to just chill and switch off.

It's time. It's been too long.

Friends Menu

There are many different types of friends one can have in a life time.

There are ones whom you are very close and best of mates with for a while but couldn't withstand the test of time... you drifted apart.

There are ones whom you will never be close to because there's nothing in common between both of you.

There are ones whom I'll classify as acquaintances, but after all these years of absence and just because you are now Facebook friends, suddenly you're best pals and unusual requests starts flowing through... I don't think so!

Than there are friends you are destined to be friends with forever long! Regardless of the amount of time you spent together, where you are and who you are... you can speak to anytime, pick up a conversation that was left months ago, updating each other's lives like repeats of a drama series, laugh at each other's silliness, share each other's secrets and keep it, will not let go of any chance of teasing each other's growing up fashion fau pax, know the context even before one speaks, understand and support each other regardless, getting into trouble together and covering each other, look after and be there for each other when one needs, see each other's flaws as just who we are... and many many more.

The scene is set... my Mum with her neighbourhood friends and my aunties... Sitting in Mum's kitchen or chatting over a cup of kopi in a coffee shop, laughing and exchanging daily news of each other. Giving each other advices. Sharing tales and experiences of their lives.

I'm very pleased that I have friends that I can do the same. Be it here in London, Singapore, Hong Kong or even Shanghai! I have friends whom I can call me own.

Silent Words

For the first time after a long long while and this is true... I had the biggest urge this morning to say that three special words. The three words that will sum up the feelings I have. The same three words that also got myself into trouble before.

It was not impulsive. It was not irrational. It was not meant to please this time.

Had a very sociable weekend with both our group of friends. Was a totally enjoyable time. Loads to eat, drink, banters and laughter. We spoke, we laughed, we walked, we rested, we held each other, we slept. No matter where we were... our gazes, our hands and touches will always find each other. We became closer.

Waking up this morning in that warm embraced. I felt those words in me. They were lingering in my mouth and in my heart. That warm feeling, not just from the body heat but was coming within. I can feel the words at the tip of my mouth.

But I held back... Maybe its not the right time. By saying them might just spoil everything. What if it's just me alone all along? Getting way ahead again?

Now him close to me. I can feel his heat against me. His broad shoulders moving up and down with his calm breathing. The bed was still. I instead held him to me, resting my face on his back. Held as tight as I could but hopefully not to wake him. He did instantly turned around, looked at me, simply smiled and held me firm and closer to him.

Actions do speak louder than words... those wonderful three silent words.

My Own Prayer

Snap out of it you! You're doing it again! All these doubts and all these unfounded thoughts! Have you not learned your lessons before?!

You've given and not received. You've opened up your heart but only had a closed one back. You had your hopes up and have been let down and disappointed.

And so what?! Big deal! You've had your equal moments of silliness and wild imaginations!

Live for today and only present matters. You should know the good from the bad. You will know when the time is right. You will know! Don't put Bad in. Don't push Good away.

If he can make you laugh out loud and smile in your heart... there must be something good.