This Is What I Got From Shanghai

Barbie - Totally Hair

Came across this during my transit in Bahrain Airport to Bangkok recently. I can feel my heart racing faster right at that moment!

One down the memory lane...

Aged 5. "Mummy can I get this?!" "NO! Your brothers will tease you!"

Took me almost 20 years later to realise one thing.

And now... Still looking at her with big wide eye, but this time I am not sulking.

I LOVE London!

Walking over Waterloo Bridge this summer morning for work... Crossing the Thames, the London Eye on my right, St Paul's Cathedral on my left, the Gherkin Building further down the river, and you just about see the tip of Tower Bridge and the tower of Tate Modern.

I sometimes have to pinch myself! Been 7 years and I'm in London! You do take things for granted.

Less rushing around with blinkers but look up and enjoy London even more from now on!

Hady Mirza

Have always wondered what's all these hype about Ah Bangs! But now I know!

Why nobody tell me about Hady Mirza?! Song from Sheila some more! The show very RIA leh even when it was Singapore Idol! And is Jacinta trying to be Paula Abdul?! Lol!

Anyhow, Aku cinta Hady! Sedap! ;-)

The Freak Show - Part I

There was this episode in SATC when Carrie met someone who turned out to be absolutely perfect. He was charming, sweet, funny, and most important of all, they both really like each other!

But Carrie being Carrie, thought that the whole world was full of freaks! Freaks with dark secrets. Freaks who cheats. Freaks with two faces. Freaks who lie. Freaks who hide from the truth. Men in general really and this person should not be an exception!

She went to the extend of going through all his things trying to look for flaws, refused to come to terms that he might just happened to be a normal decent bloke.

Talk about mirroring real to Tinseltown life!

I blame it all on my bad 'gay upbringing and growing up'! Had too many twats in my Life that I find it hard to trust anyone that I'm with. Had too many bad experiences that have made me cynical.

When left alone, my mind wonders. Especially when there are loop holes, grey areas and doubts, I imagine. I speculate. I investigate. I wonder. I discover.

There should be two endings to this entry. Not sure to go with whichever one yet.

To be continued...

I Know What You Did Last Week

He had a plan but he aborted it.

I had a plan but also aborted it.

If both plans went ahead, what will become of us?

I truly believed we both did what we did for the right reason. We did it for each other. This can only mean something.

That's What Friends Are For

You can always count on me as much as I can count on you. Thank you all for being there for me always even when you're not here.

Keep smiling. Keep shining.

Trust-dermometer

We spend our lives trying to look for the truth. When it's found, can we handle the truth? We spend our lives learning to trust. Through time, through actions, through learning we trust. As far as I am concerned, I am an open book. As transparent as water can get. As freely give as running river.

I probably know more than I should. Inquisitive more than I should. To the extend of the 'bunny boiler' stage but I blame it all on curiosity. The constant wanting to 'catch ya!' syndrome.

It's not healthy, it's not fair and it's not right. We all deserve a little bit of space. We all deserve a little bit of secrecy. Even for husbands and wives, parent and child, and between friends. I need to loosen up a bit. We are all adults living in this big gay world! Let's get real! What you don't know, don't hurt!

The main thing is... we are our own worst enemy. I know all the tricks in the book. Can I trust myself? For some reasons, I can this time. I've never felt and behave the way I behaved for the last 10 months. Something must be right!

But I also know the stake this time. Having lost everything and having to re-start 3.5 years ago, this time it is make or break, no second chance, no trial and error allowed. I am running out of time. I want to start living my adult life! Living life to the fullest, loads of fun, new adventures, new projects and all these with someone I love. Someone who also feels the same way as I do.

There will always be madness in Love... and there will always be reasons for madness.

Creature Comforts

We all like our comforts. Be it a home cooked meal or cuddling up on a sofa watching evening TV.

For me its not just the above but also being in my flat, my space with my stuff around me, feeling settled, feel belong. Kick back and do my thing. It must be old age.

Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with D and staying over at his but it has come to a point where I don't want to be planning what I need to bring with me for the next day, getting change and go over to his after coming home after a day's work, and deciding who's place we are staying tonight all the time.

It is a 'happiness problem' but hopefully it won't be a problem soon.

Guilt Trip

Mum:"Oh I've just sent you a picture of me when I was on holiday in Seoul... just in case you forget how I look like."

Ouch! Didn't know that was coming. Very slick. Very professional. Very clean killing. Very subtle but effective. Very Mum!

The Waiting Game

The application form is in! For my Naturalisation. My final part of the journey of becoming an UK citizen. 7 years in London this month. The actual process time is 6 years for Citizenship. Long time. What's in it for me? We'll see...

All paper work checked and forms filled. References taken. £700 paid. The waiting game begins.

Sex And The City

It's finally here! Went to see the movie with friends last night. The first opening weekend.

I've never been in a place and experience a movie that has created such hype and phenomenon ever before! The anticipation of this movie is almost unheard of. Besides all screenings were sold out everywhere, the atmosphere at the cinema was an unique experience by itself! From the girls who all dressed up and sipping cocktails, to uneasy boyfriends accompanying their girlfriends for the movie, to groups of gay guys chatting away, all there for the same reason... the excitement and the love for the series and now the movie. It's like the 'Trekkies' to Star Trek and Star Wars fans to the movie series, accept that we are more fun, fashionable, better shoes and beautiful looking!

Everyone cheered and clapped when the manager announces that the movie will start in 3 minutes. When the theme song came on, everyone cheer again. The shh sound was so loud when the movie started and you can see every body's concentration were on the screen, afraid that they might miss something.

We all laughed, cried, smile and did all the mandatory ahh throughout the movie. One particular scene when Carrie appeared broken, washed her face and looked into the mirror without any make-up, I swear everyone in the cinema gasped in unison! Just the same for every gift box opening moments.

Go watch the movie! You have to be a fan to be able to sit through 2.5 hours of SATC, but it will all be worth it! The fashion, the story, and the girls... long overdue but was definitely a great closure to this exceptional series.

Just like the ending of the movie... a toast to growing up and ever lasting friendships!