Living Etc

It just happened. Just came up. Not contrived but more like just a matter of fact... We talked about living arrangements this weekend.

We talked about our interior style, we talked about our favorite locations, we talked about our property plans, we talked about all these before but never spoke about living together.

D is in a position to decide whether to continue his current lease while he's selling his Brighton pad and buy somewhere in London. I am in a position to decide if I should flat share again, save a bit of money while I try to get on the property ladder in quarter 3 this year.

To rent together now and buy later? Or maintain our current living conditions and buy together later? Maybe a trial living together period is essential before buying something in the future? Questions we asked ourselves.

This second time round coming is so much sweeter and lovelier but scarier too. Especially now I am more aware of everything, more aware of what's there to lose. Its definitely more grown up and more sensible but also a greater risk at stake. Purely because I understand of the seriousness and the price to pay if things do go wrong.

So do one dig a hole now and bury one's head in? Or take this by the balls and go for it? Only time can tell... but one thing is for sure... D want this as much as I do.

Relationship Manual - Chapter 5 / Vol.III

- To be less easily excitable.

- To be less available.

- To be less assuming.

- To be less wishing.

- To be less predictable.

- To plan less.

- To be more self centred.

Chant every morning and night. 7 days a week.

A Boy Called Alex

Caught this documentary last night on TV. It was set in Eton for a start with loads of 'la-di-da' public school boys type, but the subject Alex was a 16 turning 17 year old music prodigy - who suffers from cystic fibrosis, a genetically inherited disease that is destroying his digestive system and lungs - set out to conduct a performance of Bach's epic choral work Maginificat. The tone of the evening was set so far but it was Alex's sheer life force of his personality that changed all that.

As his condition worsened, which amounted to 20 injections, three physio pummellings and a mountain of 70 pills EVERY day, one would have easily give everything up but instead Alex thrown himself into facing the challenge of taking charge of an enormous choir. The power of positive thinking was illustrated for all to see.

The most extraordinary thing was that, despite his failing body, you ended up feeling envious of this unassuming boy and his great thirst and lust for Life. Living with a terminal disease have made him positively driven, determine to live every minute of his life and live them to the fullest.

The closing credit was rather poignant and thoughtful for all of us - 'However long that turns out to be, one thing is certain - he will have lived.'

Things I Hate Most!

I hate people who thinks that they know everything.

I hate people who thinks that they are better than anyone.

I hate people who acts and behaves like teacher's pet.

I hate people who bring their mood swings result from a heavy weekend into the office.

I hate people who tell you one thing last week and the other next.

Get a grip people!

Ghost

There he was... walking by. He looked over, waved hello and walk on by.

I only managed to waved back... He didn't stop to chat...

Did he see us before? Did I look ok? He still hates my guts?

Ghost... always appears when you least expected. Haunting ghost!

I hope he's well.

New Era

In this modern day and time, what constitute to a good healthy relationship? What determines one? How one knows and realises that he's in one?

After all these time together and knowing D better (He's a true English boy afterall), finding out myself that he has just updated his Facebook profile status to 'In a Relationship'... that was more than enough for me. Nothing seems to matter anymore.

It may just be a press of a few keys on the keyboard... a mere change of status in a network website but for D is a giant step. Not quite Mr Neil Armstrong but close.

As for me, please don't ever let me fuck this up!

All We Did

We walked. The streets, the quiet lanes, the boulevards, court yards, gardens, squares, by the river, the monuments, the shops, the tower...

We ate and drank. Parisian cafes, Champagne bar, Kong, Laduree, Moroccan Restaurant, wine bar, sidewalk crepe stands...

We talked and we giggled... we had silent moments. We were serious and we were playful... we held hands and cuddles.

New Year's Resolutions

I know what we all say about New Year's resolutions but I am gonna give it a go this year. So here it is...

1) Sort out my finances - regulate my shopping and be debt free by June
2) Search for a much better prospect & pay job and be the best I can be in it
3) Get on the property ladder
4) Do something about floristry
5) Eat healthy
6) Exercise regularly - Swimming & Yoga
7) Discover new destinations of the World
8) Develop, grow and mature with D in our relationship
9) Balance work and life - Be true to myself, happy, content and know when to say NO
10)Be a better son, uncle, friend and person

Need to kick myself up the backside yet again, so here we go!